I done goofed.
Last night I made some poor judgments on what to eat and drink.
I took my low blood sugar level for granted and forgot I was diabetic. HOW DOES ONE FORGET THAT!?
I felt an overwhelming feeling of guilt. I tried talking myself out of it to the point where even I said to myself, “shut the f*** up!” I wanted to shut off my overthinking brain so badly.
The truth is, you have to forgive yourself. Everyone makes mistakes! I wrote in my journal last night, “but how long can I keep making that excuse?” The fact of the matter is that nobody’s perfect. I get it, mistakes can cost you. Take my once carefree attitude pre-diagnosis, for example. I know I have the power to one day reverse my diabetes. I have the power to take control over my rumination. I have the capability of reminding myself who I am. At the end of the day, or even in the morning, you still have the sun in you to rise above anything — including your regrets.
Every day is a new day. You can’t go back to yesterday. Every day has a lesson. In fact, each morning, peace arrives at your door in the form of choices. I’m telling you, it’s okay. Everything is okay. Just take the yin and yang and breathe. Seriously. Nothing is more important than the ability to breathe. Overthinking and anxiety can make you forget to breathe, sometimes.
I challenge you to write down your intentions for today. I’ll go first:
1.) Invest in happiness without spending money.
2.) Love with all my heart, but remember to be patient.
3.) Post content.
4.) Do yoga.
5.) Meditate and pray.
6.) Do homework.
Stressing myself out is not an option. It’s not an option for you, either. All it does is raise blood sugar. I’ll say it again, everything is okay.
Go and conquer your day, lovelies. 😘
xoxo,
April 💗
The April Diaries 